This journey is defiantly not easy at times. I have given up, started over, fallen down, gotten back up, turned left, turned right…pretty much been all over the map. Attempting to undo unhealthy habits that have been, what feels like, written into my DNA, is not easy, while at the same time creating healthy ones. Today I got a little reminder.
I had a session with Emilia and there she was, measuring tape in hand and it didn’t matter how much I pouted, we were taking measurements. I realized that although they are just “numbers” I have my success or failure in this journey tied to those numbers (unhealthy habit), I also am dealing with a new level of shame I feel around those number, but that is a different post altogether. Out came the measuring tape and I am happy to report that since I began this journey…
Shoulder: – 2 inches, Chest: -0.5 inches, Right Arm: -4 inches, Waist: -5 inches, Hips: 0 inches, Right Thigh: -2 inches, Right Calf: -0.5 inches
At first I judged those numbers because I have been on this journey for a tad over a year now and I had this vision of what my numbers would be and those aren’t it. But just like Rome wasn’t built in a day, my healthy body won’t be. This is my journey and those are my loses and I am proud of them! I have no intention of finding those disappearing inches ever again. It’s hard and I wanna give up at times, but I refuse to let myself.
P.S – It’s clear my chest and hips are stalling on joining the shrinking party about as much as I stall when I get told I have to do burpees.