This coming Monday will mark the day one year ago that I received the news that my father had left this earth to go be in heaven with my Grandpa.
This year has defiantly been different. I was in Canadian Tire the other day trying to find the fuse to fix the plug in my stove. I was struggling with which one, how much power etc… and I pulled out my phone to call my dad and then the tears welled up in my eyes. I realized while watching a tv show that I won’t have my father to walk me down the aisle when I get married. I experienced Father’s Day, Christmas and his birthday for the first time this year without him. There has been the few times I grabbed my phone to call him which again resulted in tears being shed. Yesterday and today have been a bit harder for me than I thought they would. At work I have made some quick trips to the bathroom when I feel the tears starting, I also just don’t feel like I have a lot of energy. They say the first year is the hardest and that it gets easier each day and each holiday that passes.
Having a conversation with my mom last night made a difference. One year ago is the day my father found peace.
Dad I love you, I miss you and I know that you and Grandpa are watching from above.