Honesty time…yesterday (Day 6) did not go according to plan, a bit of a self-fulfilling prophecy. I had a house guest Friday night and I never seem to sleep quite as well when there is someone else in my apartment. I got up in the morning with the best of intentions and things were shaping up great, but at around 2:30 in the afternoon I hit a wall of peanut butter, bread and slices of banana. After about an hour of snacking on this throughout that hour I sat back and immediately the Drill Sgt that lives in my head began his performance. Knowing this is never a good path to travel down I fessed up and called a friend for support. Quickly talked it through and discovered that bread is no longer allowed in the four walls of my apartment. Of all the things to hit a wall on, those are not the worst, but a loaf of bread combined with a jar of peanut butter in my house is a bad idea and has “trigger” written all over it, so in a drastic measure the loaf of bread was thrown into the garbage. The peanut butter peacefully resided in my house all week, but when I brought the loaf of bread in yesterday to make poached eggs for breakfast this morning, the 2 of them conspired. Bread no more! The win for me, was not staying in the tailspin of eating, reaching out and taking action! I then debated if I was still going to have my cheat meal and the answer was yes.
Curious what it was? When you read what it was the thought will probably me “Really?” All week I was flipping between two different things, and I finally rested on one. I had some cheezy garlic breadsticks and chicken wings from Panago Pizza. I took the time to savor and enjoy them and you want to know something funny, when you slowly eat the food you think you previously enjoyed….it doesn’t taste that great. I was immediately reaching for water afterwards because everything tasted so salty. I would say I regretted my choice, I don’t see why I enjoyed eating that previously. An hour later, my body made me well aware of the dislike for that food. The discomfort was not pleasant.
Week 1 was a week of learning, observing and doing. I fell down, got up and brushed myself off. This coming week is going to bring new challenges and the goal is to fall down a little less and get up a little quicker. Giving up my mentality of having to do it “perfectly” is one of the hardest mind challenges I am facing. Being 100% honest and accountable with all of you defiantly helps, so thanks for sticking around week 1 and let’s suit up for week 2!