At about 3pm yesterday I had a case of the “I don’t wanna.” I don’t want to go to the gym. Here is the thing, when you surround yourself with a team of people and friends that support you, the moment a “toddler tantrum” takes hold it only lasts about 5 mins. Here is what I discovered, there will be days I want to go and days I don’t. Then I am reminded that my goals are bigger than my reasons and excuses. I always joke that Taren or Emilia (my trainers) strip me of my ability to move after a training session….wrong. I have stripped myself of my ability to laugh and all I want to do is laugh at myself. I left the gym yesterday with a smirk on my face because I am constantly amazing myself with what I am capable of. Sure, I can’t hold a plank for more than a minute, my push ups don’t go that low to the ground, but the more I do the easier they get. I have to trust that all the dots in my training will connect down the road. I have to keep going, keeping exercising, keep training and I will see the results. Here is what I have found, I truly enjoy going to the gym. I like how I feel after I have worked out. I feel good, I feel strong, I feel positive.
I lost some calories again with the weight loss and I find it always takes me a day or two to adjust. I am also prepared to accept the fact that there will be days in the week that I am over and days of the week that I am under, it will wash out at the end of the week as long as I keep it top of mind. Yesterday I did a terrible job of balancing my carbs, fats and proteins and sure enough at 9pm last night I was hungry. I have also discovered that I need to try some new recipes because I get struck in a rut quite easily, so my goal for the rest of this week….1-2 new recipes to add to the mix!
I am feeling a bit sad today….perhaps nervous….also a little scared. Today is the last day of my challenge. Today is day 30. It’s hard changing your life, but in the process of working on my goals this past 30 days that is exactly what I have done and continue to do. There are going to be hard days and days where I fall down. I just won’t go backwards. Putting one foot in front of the other, moving from talking to actually doing…was one of the hardest steps I have taken and I won’t go back. If this is going to happen, it is up to me to stick with it, 30 day challenge or not.