After much thought and a couple of conversations I have made the decision to part with the girls of Seva Fitness. I have been with Taren and Emilia for a while now and as much as I love and adore both of them it became clear that our partnership was not a match moving forward. This was difficult, because it required a big step outside of my comfort zone. I did some research and met with a couple of different personal trainers, but there was one in particular that seriously gave me a run for my money. As some of you may remember, in my previous challenge, I mentioned a love for all things boxing and so I have done it. I have begun working with Meego at Infighting in Vancouver. I had a consult with him and let me tell you the pain I felt the next day was THE BEST FEELING EVER! I had a level of comfort build up around working with the ladies of Seva and breaking outside of my comfort zone and trying something new was a difficult decision to make.
These past couple weeks were also met with the 2 year anniversary of my father’s passing. August 25 is not an easy day for me to swallow, even 2 years in. I know they say it gets easier and the day to day has, but it seems when his birthday, Father’s Day or the anniversary of his passing is approaching it is as if it is the first day again.
The biggest change has been finding my voice and expressing that through words without the harsh criticism or fear of “I want people to like me” or “what will they think.” I have said this before, when you remove food as your way of coping, you have to force yourself to re-learn coping strategies. At 36 years of age, let me tell you, not an easy task. I will be honest and say that there were a few questionable days of eating, and I knew it would happen. The thought of a 60 day challenge was clearly to much for me to digest, so I am going to go 30 days again. Maybe I will stay at 30 days, maybe I will get to 60, we will see. The great part of being on my journey is that I get to say how it goes.
As much as all of that was difficult, some of the great parts of the month were stepping outside my comfort zone in many different areas. I also got to explore of the Vancouver’s gorgeous hiking and walking trails. I visited parts of the lower mainland I have never been too and holy noodle do we live in a gorgeous city!
So the next 30 days will be met with renewed enthusiasm, daily posts, sweat, maybe some blood and I am certain a few tears. I intend on pushing myself further than I have before, removing the words “I can’t” from my vocabulary, stepping so far outside my comfort zone I destroy any walls I may have built around me.
Don’t believe me, just watch.