Project 37 – Day 13

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So in the interest of 100% honesty, I went a bit sideways this weekend, but learnt some really great lessons!

Saturday I was a bit of a lazy sloth and didn’t really get off the couch until 3pm when I headed up to the grocery store because I had done zero grocery shopping for the weekend. Mistake number one. Going grocery shopping when hungry. Here is where my “cheat meal” turned into a “cheat evening.” I had decided that my cheat meal was going to be one of those Delissio oven pizza’s. I don’t know what it is about them, but I love them! Shameful fact, I used to be able to eat a whole one by myself. I ate 3 slices on Saturday and I was so full. I don’t know why I thought it was a good idea, but about an hour later I added jelly beans and wine gums, then some chips. By about 10pm I had the most horrific stomach ache. I was trying to will my body to vomit, just to get the pain to stop. I climbed into bed with a bottle of tums and had the worst nights sleep with several visits to the bathroom.

Sunday morning I woke up at about 8am and I could still feel that my tummy was off. I had hot water with a slice of lemon. I was spending the afternoon with my cousin and I knew I wasn’t going to have anything at the theatre. Mistake number two. I ate 2 slices of left over pizza at noon and 15mins later my tummy was unhappy. The rest of the pizza then went into the compost. Lots of water, some serious laughing at the new Deadpool movie and my cousin and I were off to a new Mexican restaurant that opened in New West called El Santo. Mistake number three. I am new to the world of spicy foods. This food was so insanely delicious! I highly recommend this place if you are looking for really great Mexican food! A plate of green peppers arrived at our table and the waitress smiled and informed us that eating this is like playing Russian Roulette, there were a couple hot ones and some plain ones. I got two spicy ones and there was a lot of food consumed….again….I was once again willing the pain to stop because I was once again dealing with a very unhappy tummy. With no one to blame but myself, I ate nothing the rest of the night but Tums and warm water.

I am looking forward to returning to clean/healthy eating this week. Flushing my system of the toxins and crushing some workouts at the gym!

Lesson #12: My tummy can not handle food like it used to. This is a very good, very painful lesson to learn. The foods you once enjoyed no longer serve you purpose or enjoyment! Listen to your body!

Lesson #13: Listen to your body! I know I know, I promise I don’t mean this in the same way as lesson #12. We are all born with and develop a natural intuition. Over the years, some of us learn to ignore it, second guess it, or some develop it and use it as a very useful tool in their lives. Here is what I have schooled in about it recently. NEVER EVER ignore it. In the times I ignored it, I shouldn’t  have and in the times I listened, I was bang on. Trust yourself, trust your instincts and never be afraid to stand up for them.

Love: My family. I come from a ridiculously large family. Some members I am close with, some I only see at family functions. As nutty and silly as my family is at times I am very thankful that no matter what, no matter how long it has been, I have a team of people that always have my back!

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Project 37 – Day 11

Almost...not really...beat my bro in our family Fitbit Workweek Hustle Challenge!

Almost…not really…beat my bro in our family Fitbit Workweek Hustle Challenge!

Good Morning Peeps!

So…..I am super mad this morning and am currently trying to talk myself off a ledge, so what better place to do that than here with you. This morning was weigh-in and I was super excited to step on the scale. I stepped up my workouts, I ate well this week, there were a couple blips, not with bad food, but with a little snacking, but I stayed under 2000 calories EVERY day and my calorie burn was over 3000 all but 1 day, so WTF!?!?!

I have an angel vs. devil conversation going on on my shoulders right now. The angel…You added weight training this week that builds muscle, muscles weighs more than fat. The devil…yeah, but you missed Wednesday cause you were being a baby about your hip. The angel…you posted a 5.6 lbs loss last week, your body is just normalizing itself again. The devil…you slipped and fed me bread twice this week and we LOVED IT! MORE! The angel…stay the course, you can do this. Remember it is a marathon, not a sprint. The devil…just throw in the towel, you won’t ever do this. This is the back and forth going through my brain right now. I didn’t drink as much water as I should have, I have my “ladytime” right now. I didn’t sleep that well this week. My body and muscles are stiff and sore today so I know I have been doing the work. Was I 100% perfect this week with eating…no, but I was a solid 98%. The winning voice is going to be “Just breathe Nikki, stay the course.”

Today is Saturday, I don’t share everything on this blog, because it just isn’t appropriate….but let me say, yesterday sucked ass in a big big way. Despite having a shitty day when the urge to just EAT was overwhelming, I didn’t. I went to the gym and had a very sweaty cardio workout instead, then the bestie came over and we talked out my crappy day instead of eating. Today will be deep breathes, meal and exercise planning for next week. I will so also not be tracking today. I do have a cheat meal planned for dinner tonight and I am not gonna lie, I am kind of excited 🙂

Love: that I seem to be able to stop the urges to binge eat before they happen and the one time it started this week I was able to interrupt it quickly and swiftly before it turned into anything

Lesson #11: Deep breaths and a calm demeanor can go a long way. I have a bit of a habit of being able to go from zero to over reacting in about 2 seconds flat. Yesterday I was able to reign it in, listen to by gut and prepare my mind for some conversations that need to happen next week. I used to be really great and sweeping things under the rug, but one of the things I took on this year was stepping up and stepping out, this is all part of that.

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Project 37 – Day 10

The face you make when your legs are toast and walking is a struggle

The face you make when your legs are toast and walking is a struggle

Goooood Morning Peeps!

I am some serious kind of tired this morning…HOLY! I had an insanely busy day at work that ended with a couple frustrations, piled on top of PMS, so after a tearful phone call with my Mom it was off to the gym, despite my overwhelming desire to just go home. Leaving work at 6:30 getting to the gym for 7:15, by the time I got home it was almost 9:30, then it was a protein shake, make my lunch for today, shower, stretch and bed. Working out 2 hours later than normal, makes winding down before bed a bit of a challenge let me tell you. I am was so stinkin’ proud of the workout I crushed! I did have one struggle at the gym….the gym I go to has a ladies only section, but I normally workout in the “all” section because I am more comfortable there. I find women tend to be more judgmental and are watching me, where as when I am in the “all” section people could care less. There were two young girls in the section and I got instantly uncomfortable and I had to have a conversation with myself to keep going. It is weird the little games and tricks your mind tries to play on you!

This morning I get my “clicking” hip taken care of and my chiro is going to make me feel like a big pool of jelly, just in time for a cardio only session tonight before weigh in tomorrow morning! I always get nervous the day before weigh in. Did I do everything I could? I feel bloated today, maybe I should wait till Sunday. That little voice inside my head is NEVER ENDING! Don’t look at me like I am crazy, you all have that voice, I promise you!

Love: MUSIC! I have a serious love of music! I have all types of music playing all the time. I start my day with music playing and I end my day the same way. Music has this really great way of helping me processes feelings.

Lesson #10: The struggle was real last night!  Make sure you go to the bathroom before you start hard core sweating at the gym, because compression leggings do not make it easy! I swear, I was hopping around in that bathroom stall like a spastic bean getting electrocuted!

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Project 37 – Day 9

PhotoGrid_1455208268300_resizedGood Morning Peeps!

Well yesterday was a bit of an interesting day….I amazed myself a couple of times.

Yesterday, my hips were not happy. Since I started to workout more and strengthen my muscles we…meaning myself and my chiro….have discovered some hips issues that I can normally keep in check with maintenance visits. All day yesterday my right hip was clicking, which is a sign for me that it needs some tender love and care. I debating about going to the gym and seeing what happens, but if it goes out completely I will be out for at least a week. So, in an effort to rest my muscles and not anger my hip anymore I took the night off from the gym. This made me nervous. I didn’t want to go home and eat.

After a successful day at work, where I impressed myself with my business skills in a new client meeting, I stayed at work a bit later than normal. Heading home, I took the long route around from the skytrain to my bus stop in an effort to avoid all the little shops, grocery store….temptations. Keeping my eyes down and on the bus. I had a yummy dinner when I got home. I sat down on the floor to stretch and chill for a bit and then I noticed the thoughts about food floating through my head. Distracted myself with stretching, bit of cleaning and seemed to be getting on ok. Soaked in an Epsom salt bath, did a little reading and then began making my lunch for today. This is where for a few minutes the nibbling and snacking while making and  packing my lunch got a little out of hand. I was able to quickly reign it in with minimal damage to my calorie intake, still coming in just over of 1900 for the day. The part that impressed me was that afterwards I wasn’t beating myself up, I wasn’t made at myself. It happened, I stopped it, YAY!, let’s move on. This hasn’t happened a whole lot…maybe once…before, so it was a big win for me yesterday!

Recipe #4: OMG THESE ARE SERIOUSLY SO GOOD! I made a PB & J Overnight Oats. I, of course, made a few dietary modifications. I used gluten free oats, a no sugar added jam, all natural peanut butter (allergic to almonds) and I took out the maple syrup. I don’t need the extra sugar. With the banana and the jam it was sweet enough. Holy smokes I had to slow down from eating them this morning because sweet jeebus they were tasty! I am going to give the German Chocolate version a go tonight.

Love: I love the neighborhood that I live in, in New Westminster. I am close to the river, so I can hear the tug boats in the morning. I am surrounded by beautiful heritage homes and lots and lots of wildlife. Skunks, Raccoons, Coyotes oh my!

Lesson #9: Listen to your body. It will tell you everything that you need to know, you just have to stop and listen.

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Project 37 – Day 8

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Good Morning Peeps!

Yesterday was a tough day, I don’t know if it was just the day or, as my female readers can understand, PMS kicking my ass! I was cranky and uncomfortable a majority of the day. I have developed a wicked blister on the back of my left heel and so when 4:30 rolled around, in my head I had the perfect excuse to go home. Then a thought ran through my brain….if I go home this early, I am going to binge eat. We are using exercise to interrupt the binge eating habits…so let’s get some blister Band-Aids and get our ass to the gym. Off I went and the day kept on giving…or at least my attitude did!

I was plugging away on the cross trainer, muscles loudly protesting from Monday’s assault, and I realized that my heart monitor was not registering on my watch! Dang it! Oh well, not a total loss or the end of the world. After my workout I head home to make my super yummy Green Goddess Smoothie, except I have a new Vanilla flavored Rice Protein powder….smoothie turns out GROSS! The struggle to expand your protein powder horizons is real sometimes! I am allergic to Whey, so my options are already limited, but this brand was GROSS…..drank a majority of the shake anyways because I don’t want to waste. Talk about an unsatisfying dinner. I also decided to watch some stupid television and went to bed WAY later than intended, so this morning I am tired and determined to not let my cranky attitude carry over.

Today we have a serious session at the gym planned, a new breakfast recipe on the docket to make tonight and early to bed!

Love: My tenacity. I have had quite a few people come at me with their concerns about my frequency at the gym and yesterday I started to doubt myself, but when I stopped and checked in with myself and my body, I feel amazing. Sure I have some sore muscles, but that is to be expected. Can’t stop, won’t stop unless my body tells me otherwise 😉

Lesson #8: *cue the scene from Happyness where Will Smith is talking to his son* If you want something in life, you have to go and get it period. Don’t let anyone ever tell you, you can’t or you shouldn’t. No one is going to hand it over to you. Go out and get it.

 

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Project 37 – Day 7

My fake smile on my beet red face

        My fake smile on my beet red face

Good Morning Peeps!

It is Day 2 of NO RAIN IN VANCOUVER!!!! YAY!!!! Don’t get me wrong I love me some puddle jumping, but the shot of Vitamin D yesterday and this morning makes a WORLD of difference!

Yesterday was a pretty awesome day. I impressed myself with my workout yesterday. The gym was virtually empty so I had my pick of machines and equipment. I love it when that happens! I started (…again) my learning to run program. I used to have no problem running for a couple minutes and I could barely make it a minute. I just kept telling myself that no matter how slow you go, don’t stop running and by the last interval I wanted to die, but I crushed it! I then did a full body weight training program and by the last round of burpees, push-ups, squats, mountain climbers, Russian twists, and more….I wanted to die. There was a terribly attractive man working out next to me and when I was laying on the ground at the end he walked over, did say a word, smiled and gave me a high five. It was one of those workouts at the end that you can ring your shirt out, your face is beet red and you get up to walk to the change room and your legs don’t quite function right. I was so proud of myself and impressed!

Recipe #3: Eating was pretty simple yesterday. I cooked a SUPER yummy new recipe. I am new to the world of 2016-02-08 21.59.10_resizedspice….mild salsa used to be too spicy for me. I made these Spicy Thai Peanut Noodles. I didn’t have sriracha so I used red pepper flakes instead. I don’t know where in my brain and I thought “Oh, they aren’t as spicy as sriracha, so I will use more” Well I had LIPS OF FIRE when I was eating dinner last night, but it was still insanely delicious! I did make a few modifications….I used rice noodles instead of spaghetti and I removed the crushed peanuts that were simply to add the “crunch” factor in the salad. I drank so much water with dinner, and I will have Lips of Fire all week, but I don’t care, it was so so so tasty!

Love: my “girly” side. I love getting all dolled up. I love doing my hair and makeup. I love the color pink. I love my femininity. I also love that I can live in sweats and have no problem getting covered in dirt and mud.

Lesson #7: if you are or have ever been curious about false eyelashes….I am here to tell you that it takes many many tries before you can apply them with ease! I have glued my eye shut. I have glued them on upside down. I have looked like I have caterpillars for eyelashes. I can finally say that I can apply them with ease after about a year of solid effort! Keep trying my makeup, false eyelash loving Diva’s!

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So Sunny! So much Vit. D! Bring it!

Project 37 – Day 6

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Breakfast & Macy (aka BEST dog EVER)

Sitting in front of my computer for almost 20 minutes having to talk myself into writing this post today, then I quickly remembered that this is a lifetime change, perfection is not the goal…

You’ll notice I was absent yesterday…well Saturday went a bit sideways and it carried over into yesterday. My anxiety about attending the party reached a peak late Saturday afternoon and with a lack of being prepared with food for the weekend I took the easy way out. The one thing I noticed is that I caught myself and put the food away. I got to the party and it was no where near as bad as I thought it was going to be. It was a great group of people that made the anxiety disappear almost instantly. I did fine with the spread of snacks until about 10:30pm and that was right around when I was getting tired. First mistake was sitting in a chair right next to the snack table. On the plus side I cleared almost every carrot and red pepper off the vegetable tray. Then 11:30pm hit and my hand went into the chip bowl a couple times, so I quickly handed that to a friend of mine who moved it closer to her. Then there was a meat and crackers, then a couple of insanely delicious wings, and by a whole lot of grapes. By the time we got home at close to 1 o’clock both mine and the bestie’s tummies were full and unhappy. I stayed strong and I did not drink though, the thought did crossed my mind, I had a lot of fun without the alcohol. It was a really great lesson for me and practice. The anxiety is in my head and I noticed a lot about myself Saturday night and the snacking could have been WAY worse, but it wasn’t.

The only excuse for yesterday was tiredness. I had some early morning wake up kisses from Macy (black lab pictured above) that started shortly after 5am and periodically until 6:30am. It is like she knew, as soon as I fell back asleep she would come over and I could hear her breathing in my ear, she would nudge me with her nose. Despite the repeated attempts to tell her it wasn’t time to get up, she felt otherwise. Coffee and yummy vegan pancakes for breakfast, but then on my way home I made the decision to do my grocery shopping, mistake number two. NEVER shop for groceries when you are hungry or tired. So, this weekend was a lesson in preparedness.

I woke up this morning with my holiday Monday laid out that includes a trip to the gym with a new workout strategy I am going to test for the next few weeks thanks to a friend at the party who happens to be heavily involved in the fitness industry. I have 4 new recipes laid out for the week, 2 of which I will be making tonight!

Love: that I have friends that support and remind me everyday that life is all about learning and continually growing. They provide butt kicking’s when necessary and loving support when needed with a small hint of a slap upside the head because I can be quite stubborn at times!

Two lessons to make up for the missed one yesterday….

Lesson #5: If there is a conversation or situation that is causing you to stress or worry, the dialogue you are having in your head about it is a thousand times worst than it actually is or will turn out to be. I need to remind myself of this one on a regular basis.

Lesson #6: It doesn’t matter the age of anyone at a party….you can put on Justin Bieber and EVERYONE knows exactly who it is. I am convinced he might be taking over the world *shutter*, but in all fairness his new album has a lot of really catchy songs that get embedded in your brain!