What Did I Sign Up For….

34559-Life-Is-About-Kicking-Ass-Not-Kissing-ItI woke up this morning feeling both overwhelming energy and dred mixing together to create a bad hangover. I woke up excited to begin this 60 day challenge and then I was asking myself “What the hell did I just sign up for?!?!” The perfect place to be. I have always been told that if it doesn’t scare you a lil’ bit it won’t motivate you.

Those of you that have been following me for a while know I have previously completed a 5K. Yes I completed it…but it is time to get honest. I did not do the prep work prior to the race. I did not complete the learning to run program and during the actual race, I ran maybe a quarter of it….I half assed the prep and my commitment was non existent. Sure I was proud of myself for completing it, but I want to complete one with the intention of ensuring I have done everything I know possible ahead of time to have a successful race. I want to be able to beat my previous time…pretty sure it was the 45-50min mark. I want to be able to run a majority of the race. Simply put, I want to do better than I previously did. I want my whole ass to be in, not just half 😉

Mental game…this whole journey is ensuring that my mental game is as strong as my physical one. It must first start in my heart, then move to my head before it can appear in my body.  If there is one thing I have noticed over the last few days, the large quantities of carbs I have been consuming defiantly have affected my mental game. I have been quick to anger, then to tears and an emotional rollercoaster. I know it will take a few days for them to leave my body while I restore the balance back to nutrient dense foods only. I was excited to slide my lunch and snacks into my backpack this morning with my workout gear.

Stayed tuned for how the rest of today goes!


For the Love Of…..

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I have discovered something about myself that I was almost certain I was never going to say. I love to run. Turns out, I am a runner. I have “complete a 5k” on my bucket list because, at the time, it seemed like a good goal for someone wanting to lose weight and get healthy, but over the months it has turned into a different reason.  There is something about running that I can’t quite put my finger on.

Running and I got off to a rough start. I remember when Emilia first made me run I laughed and knew I wasn’t going to last very long. I really struggled with breathing at the beginning and it took a conversation with my awesome doctor to figure out that I was trying to breathe in and out with each stride which was almost causing me to hyperventilate so the goal became to inhale on one stride and exhale over 2-3 strides and guess what, running become easier.

I feel like I am accomplishing something when I am running. I don’t know quite what it is, but I feel good. I feel like no one can take it away from me, it belongs to me and only me. I can feel myself as a skinner woman. I can feel the fit of my clothes changing. I can feel the difference in my body. I can feel the changes happening. I can also feel my need to put the brakes on and make it all stop. I have discovered a real love of running. I feel like I am really accomplishing something and no one can take it away from me because it is mine. I can do this, I can do this journey by continuing to believe in myself and love myself beyond all my excuses. LET’S GO RUNNING!!!!