I have wanted to sit down and write everyday for the last couple of months, but it was always a combination of concern, worry and anxiety that would have be not write a single word…. until today. I realized that I was always writing for someone else. I was always writing for you, the person reading this. I was always trying to make sure that what I was writing was motivating, moving, inspiring and it was hard to write on the days that I wasn’t feeling those things myself. I could never come online and share the bad days, the rough days as fully as they were happening, so I realized that a change was necessary. Change…. has a big place in my life at the moment. It is happening everywhere and for the first time in a very long time, I am embracing changes with open arms.
I love writing. I love sharing. I don’t care that my grammar is horrible, and I overuse punctuation and use it in the wrong places. I am not writing to be portray this perfect image anymore. I am writing to share my story. To share my journey. To share, the good, the bad, the ugly and to hopefully show just one person that they are not alone. That if I can fall down a thousand times and keep getting back up to try again, they can too.
Here is what I have learnt in the last year:
- Change doesn’t have to be anxiety inducing or scary
- Embracing your faults is a good thing
- Going on adventures if mandatory
- People you thought would be in your life forever, will no longer be there and that can be a good thing.
- Motivation is fleeting
- You can find inspiration in the oddest places
- Humans are scary
- Humans are a breath of fresh air
- Loving yourself is the best gift of all
- Finding your purpose in life isn’t this big A-HA moment like it is in the movies
- Things don’t always go according to plan and sometimes that is the biggest gift of all
Change is hard work, it is a struggle in the face of no motivation and I have never wanted to do the work daily. I have never wanted to face the fact that all the insights into my personal and mental health mean squat if you are not willing to translate that into daily work.
In short, it is time to show the hard work it takes to change and go after what you want and pursue your passion and your purpose.