Fat 2.0…

PhotoWowie….wow….wow….

I have some sore legs this morning! I headed to the gym after getting my vote on yesterday and I amazed myself with my ability to do 1000m on the rowing machine. This was after 45 mins on the elliptical and a few other full body exercises. I loathe the rowing machine, that is why I am forcing myself to spend some time on it. A few months back I attempted 1000 meters on the rowing machine and gave up at the 10 min mark. Yesterday I finished 1000 meters in 8 mins and 37 seconds. Now, I am not heading to the Olympics or anything, but it was a great moment for me. Now the goal is to improve on that. I also cleared 14,000 steps on the ol’ Fitbit. My goal is to crack 15,000 before the weekend in over. I have not cracked 15,000 steps in over 8 months, so it is going to happen!

I am not weighing in at Weight Watchers this Saturday because I am heading out of town for the night. Want to know how the week normally goes when I know that I am not weighing in? It tends to go a bit sideways. I am not as strict with tracking what I am eating so points tend to go higher than normal. I don’t hold myself as accountable as I would if I was weighing in. Want to know how this week is currently going? The polar and complete opposite of that. That moment when you realize that the only one you are hurting is yourself. The lady who writes down the number in the little book, isn’t attached to whether it goes up or down. The fluctuation of that number is only a gage of the activities I have been participating in and I am the only one that is attached to what that number is. Being attached to the number is something I think I may always struggle with, to some degree. I have to keep reminding myself that even if I have a great week and the number goes up, there are so many reasons why and it isn’t a sign of failure. I just need to keep my focus on the habits, break the binge eating cycles, focus on exercise and don’t worry so much about what the number on the scale says because it will follow.

I also wanted to touch base on my use of the word “fat.” For a couple weeks now, I have been using that word more. We were adjusting our chairs, for ergonomics, in the office the other day and I said “These chairs are not fat girl friendly, booty be damned!” The look of horror on my co-worker’s face. I asked her what was wrong and I got the typical response. I smiled and shared with her that fat is just a word that I am trying to take away the stigma for myself. It is a descriptive word that carries a lot of weight and meaning for a lot of people, but for myself…. Yes, I have fat, but I also have hair, teeth and toes…doesn’t have any bearing on the kind of person I am or weather or not I think I am beautiful. I still struggle with it, when you are walking down the road and someone makes a comment or your dating pool becomes infinitely smaller because you live in a city where the focus is more on how your behind looks in a pair of Lululemon pants versus your personality and character. But…..I am getting better and better with the word and the definition of that word for me.

Mindfulness…

PhotoWell….today you get another 2 for deal!

The last two days has been an exhausting …literally. I do not know what is going on, but sleep is all I have wanted. I got 7 hours of sleep Sunday night and it was all I could do to keep my eyes open yesterday. Then I did something I swore I would NEVER DO…I fell asleep on public transit, I couldn’t help it. I sat down and then next thing I know I am opening my eyes and the bus is pulling into the Skytrain station. Then last night I was snuggled in my bed and asleep by 8:30PM. Even this morning I am still feeling a little sleepy. However, today I feel more alert that I did yesterday. I am not certain what is going on, but I am listening carefully.

I had one of those really great Sunday’s where you do just what you need to do, like laundry and a little cleaning. Then the rest of the day was spent doing things that I wanted to do. Had breakfast with one of the besties, went for a walk, took a nap, did a little writing, some reading, some meal prep for the week, painted my nails and dealt with an eyebrow situation. I was calling it Self-Care Sunday and it was delightful.

For about ten minutes Sunday evening I felt a little guilty about what I had eaten and that I wasn’t tracking. When I realized any thing I had eaten wasn’t done out of avoiding a feeling or trying to escape something. I ate it because it was freaking tasty and I enjoyed eating it. I didn’t binge eat or over eat and I realized that for the first time in a very long time, I had an entire day where I ate mindfully. It was a unique experience for me and it made me smile.

Yesterday was a typical Monday at work, always busy. I was on point with my eating, which included a sandwich from Subway and even a little bag of chips. That is one of the things I love about Weight Watchers. You can eat whatever you want, never leaving yourself feeling deprived or like there are foods that are “off limits.” It all boils down to choices, moderation and balance.

Today I am returning to the gym after I do one very important task…..VOTE!

Review: NatureBox…

NatureBoxWelcome to my first official product review! Be kind 🙂

I stumbled across NatureBox when a few of the beauty guru’s/vlog I follow on YouTube starting talking about it. I was curious and rolled on over to the website to have a look.

NatureBox is a monthly subscription box of 5 full size snacks. You can choose your own from the different 100+ snacks or you can receive a “surprise” box each month.  Choices range from Gluten-free, Vegan friendly, Dairy-free, nut-free and many more.  From what I have read they use Non-GMO wholesome ingredients with the snacks being minimally processed, meaning there is not a whole lot of garbage added to them. In addition, most snacks have a nutritionists’ seal of approval.

Here is one down side, Canada is currently in a “beta phase” of testing so your only option is the “surprise” box, but you can see what is in the box well ahead of time and you can choose to hold off on your subscription that month if you are not excited about the contents of that month’s box.

I have received 2 boxes from NatureBox and so far there hasn’t been one snack that I am not happy with. There has been a good balance of sweet and savory snacks in my box ranging from super crunchy to soft and chewy. Every package has been packed full of taste and flavor.  They come in resealable bags that keep the freshness locked in. My favorite so far has been the Coconut Date Bites. I put them directly into the freezer and whenever I was craving something sweet I would grab a couple.

Why did I choose to give NatureBox a try? As someone that is tackling her health and well-being and has a bad habit of being a bit lazy I wanted to have items in the house that were more nutritious for me than the cookies, ice creams treats that would normally fill my house and cupboards. I will say the sugar content in some of the snacks is a bit on the higher side, but it is naturally occurring sugar, not added refined sugar. Eating a handful of dried apple slices is a better choice than a Snickers bar or a package of M&M’s.

For the $19.95USD a month, I find NatureBox to be a great value for the types, quality and size of snacks you receive. When Canada launches there fill site I look forward to being able to choose snacks that are a better fit for my goals moving forward.